I suppose I should thank God I am still alive. Steve’s cousin died. They say where there is life there is hope.

I don’t know why, but the job I thought I had has fallen through. The principal called and told me so tonight. I was stunned. I expected to hear perhaps I needed to come in and sign a contract. I didn’t expect the whole thing to be pulled out from under my feet.

I wanted this so badly, and I don’t understand what happened.

I feel so much anger. At this point, the jobs are dwindling. I am very scared I won’t find one. What on earth am I going to do? I have three children and a husband to support. I am, after all, the main breadwinner. We need medical insurance.

I have dissolved into tears. Depression. I don’t know what I will do. All I want is for all of this new worry to disappear.

Why did this happen?